So, here I am sitting at Vivid Ink in Holt, MI. I just spent an hour and a half getting a new tattoo(reason for the tatt2 title, vs tattoo), and I’m thrilled about it. The reason I got our album art is to commemorate the experiences I’ve had since our band’s first time jamming “closer.” Hanging out with one of my top 2 musical influences for a week, recording good music with some of my best friends for 2 weeks, playing for almost 500 people at our cd release show, man the list goes on. And it’s gonna be awesome when down the road, I’ll be able to tell my kids and stuff about it, hopefully inspiring them to follow their dreams and even if they don’t come true, at least we tried.
DG
People are more in love with the idea than the truth.
So, finished all of the instruments for one song. Drums and bass are done for the other 4. Pretty stoked about it. It’s gonna be a while before I put any of them up on the myspace page though.. lots of stuff yet to be done ya know?
Does anyone feel like things just keep going wrong? Like all the time?
I feel like people come in and out of my life everyday. It sucks. I have an awesome core group of friends who keep me grounded for the most part. But there’s still a void that’s keeping me a few inches off the ground sometimes. I don’t really know how to fix it either. I’ve tried just about everything I think. Maybe I just have to wait it out. “good things come to those who wait” is a quote I’ve been trying to keep in mind throughout all of the madness that seems to be happening.
Maybe I’m just that guy who like, takes things that are sorta bad and then multiplies them by like, 100,000 and isn’t having the best time. Am I my own worst enemy? I dunno. I just miss the stable ground that used to be beneath my feet. Maybe I took it for granted. But I’m trying to avoid the cracks and bumps in the road as best I can. Or at least go at them head on, and deal with it accordingly.
I just push people away I guess. Or keep them at arms length and let them in just a teeny tiny bit. Then I put on a front towards those people and pretend I’m 100% happy. I’m just a needy dude who wants someone to help make him happy I guess. Because right now I’m incapable of making myself completely happy on my own. And I’m too stubborn to admit I’m in the wrong. It’s like.. I could change and make others happy in hopes that they’d make me happy. But if I’m not me, would I be truly happy? And if I’m settling for less than I want, I’d no longer be doing someone else a disservice but I wouldn’t be doing right by myself anymore. It’s hard to judge what’s right at the moment. Looking out for #1 or trying to make people happy. I feel like if I try to please others, I’d be doing it to distract myself from underlying issues. But if I don’t, and people around me are miserable because of me, I have the underlying issues to deal with as well as surface ones. Who knows anymore. I need to get on a regular sleep schedule and stop being on the computer all of the time. You can only refresh the pages so many times before it becomes redundant.
I’ll be heading into the studio with my good friend, Dave Suchanek (Loune, Bird dog, Red Pill, Spitzer Space Telescope). there are gonna be 5 songs that are very near and dear to my heart on this EP. I’ll be writing a new entry everyday from the studio. Maybe pictures/videos occasionally
un-official tracklisting:
1. Fools Gold
2. The Sound of a Silence Breaking
3. Ghost Town
4. Outcome
5. Halfway There
and some extra songs that might not make the cut. Who knows though! We’ll see what happens
I’ll put up the album art as soon as it’s done.
So far, ghost town and outcome are the only one’s we’ve started .I’m real stoked on this though. I think a lot of you will like the EP. It has a couple of slow jams, as well as a few upbeat ones.
In the mean time, I’ll be on Instant Messenger during the entire process, so we can chit chat about stiff stuff
alettertodillon is my sn
You can expect the record to be out on itunes sometime in 2010!
In the mean time, please add me on myspace!
www.myspace.com/dillongorden
“any asshole with garageband thinks they can make a band and get famous”
I feel like that asshole, except I have pro-tools on a PC.
I dunno if it’s a like.. a quarter life crisis or what, but I’m just re-thinking everything. For those of you who don’t know me, i’m very analytical and it usually does me more harm than good. So you should probably stop reading now. haha
But it just seems like lately, things are just going wrong. Everything. And I wonder whether or not I am where I’m supposed to be. Doing what I’m supposed to be doing. I feel like I’m in middle school again, on my baseball team. And we’re losing. no one has any sort of motivation to put their rally caps on, but i’ve been rocking mine since the first inning.
Thanksgiving with my family really kinda just put me in my place as far as music goes. “I guess the music genes skipped a generation, because none of us got them but you kids have all of the talented genes. You have a gift, you know that right?”
Hearing that, and dealing with what I’ve been dealing with is just like.. so contradicting. I dunno.
I wish none of you followed me, so then I wouldn’t feel like such an asshole writing this on here.
You have a gift, you know that right?
Some gift..
DG
